Does it ever happen? When you’re surrounded by tons of people and friends who’re partying around and you’re a part of the party too. Do you also feel lonely in the crowd of familiar faces and figures? Dancing on tunes you like or might not like. Grooving with someone you’ve had crush on or maybe it’s your boyfriend or girlfriend. Well, physically? Yeah. But mentally?
Does it ever happen that you feel alone and secluded even when you’re a vital part of the group? Does it ever happen that the happening times you spend with your colleagues and friends make you remorse and morose? Or if not morose then irritated and unwilling to participate. The fake smile that you stick on your gloomy face that it gives fake brightness? Does it ever occur to you why it happens so even when you’re a part of the society? Do you feel incomplete too?
Contrary to this, I don’t know why I feel complete and blissed when I am out on my own. When no one else is there, I don’t feel the urge to stick the fake smile, well that’s because I wear a natural one. The shine and brightness of the face tells emotion and feeling, and that is not gloominess at all. When on mountains and trekking, nature or near a dam, lake or ocean, when out into the wilderness, I feel solace in simplicity of the nature. The abstract of the environment, the purity and the asymmetry. No mirrors, natural night lamps, the stars on the roof which are not stickers or paint. Boundaries unseen, just green towers and giant rocks.
It all defines happiness, felicity.
Then why do we seek fun and thrill in the chaos of the metropolis and fake parties? Why are we even looking for something that pure in the impurity. Why don’t we know that we are going in the wrong direction?